More Progress...

I weighed in yesterday and have lost a total of 17.6 lbs! I am only 2 1/2 pounds away from my first goal! I did finally decide what I will reward myself with when I reach my first 20 lb goal. A massage! Doesn't that sound nice! I am so excited.

My diet has changed some. I am still doing Weight Watchers and trying to keep track of points, but now with my MS diagnosis I have learned that not eating several foods will really help to reduce attacks, or relapses or episodes, whatever you want to call them.

No gluten, no legumes (including peanuts, green beans and peas), no dairy and no sugar. Yes that doesn't leave much: Lean meats, fruits, veggies (except for tomatoes, potatoes, and corn) and nuts and seeds. I will also be doing a Standard Process Cleanse soon and I am looking at Candida over growth solutions too. Lots to learn!

I have exercised everyday so far this week! I know it is only Wednesday, but that is good for me. I am told if you don't use it you loose it, so I am gonna use it! I also need 30 minutes of sunshine a day: Morning walk here I come!

Whoa!

I was really busy this week, my sister Becca was in town, I had a large order for Buzz About Baby, and I helped my sister Alaura move back from college (she lived on the third floor and filled the Sienna and the Scion with all her stuff!), so I didn't have time to go to a meeting until this morning. I was shocked when the scale read 230.6! That's a 5.6 lb loss in a week and a half, a lot more than I expected.

Total loss: 11.8 lbs (just shy of 5% of my weight!)

I got my second gold sticker, it's funny how a little sticker can make you feel good. =)
I know not to expect that type of a loss next week or even ever again, but it was a good surprise, maybe it pays to be busy.

I still haven't decided what to do when I reach my first 20lb goal. I'm more than half way there, so I need to figure it out.

Weight Watchers

Weight Watchers has been going quite well actually. I have a certain number of points each day (currently 31) and with those points they include some guidelines: 5 fruits and vegetables, 2 dairy, 2 healthy oils, 6 liquids and 2 lean proteins, along with my vitamins and whole grains.

A lot of people have commented about how hard it is to stick to their allotted points the first week, but I have felt quite satisfied. I know it is about the choices. I eat an apple for 2 points instead of a mini snickers bar for 2 points.

I have lost almost 4 pounds in 2 weeks. I hope this progress continues.

I have decided to reward myself when I reach my three 20 pound goals.
First 20 lbs: to be determined, any ideas?
Second 2o lbs: Get a sitter and rent a hotel room where Curtis and I stayed after we got married (with a whirlpool)
Third 20 lbs, when I reach my goal weight...drum roll please.....
Curtis is going to take me to Hawaii!! He agreed with it so I'm going to make him stick to it! =)

I really need to start exercising. I know it will help me loose weight and keep my muscle and have more energy, I am just having a really hard time fitting it in, but I will cause I need to.

Last weigh in: April 11th 238.6 lbs
Down: 3.8 lbs

I am trying to hide my chubby face from the camera, not realizing Curtis is getting my torso too. I can't wait to be ok with getting my picture taken.

Still here...

My slenderization has kind of been put on hold the past couple of weeks with the move and all. I have been packing, unpacking, painting, moving furniture, sanding, and organizing and I feel like I have been eating less, but I guess not too healthily. Even with all that work I managed to gain another 5 pounds. I think I have a gift for gaining weight. =) Anyone want me to give it to them? I don't want it anymore. ;)

I have had a health scare recently, maybe more like a health awakening. Last Saturday I noticed that my left eye was blurry. To make a long story short, I most likely have optic neuritis, the same thing my aunt got in college and 10-15 years later was diagnosed with MS. They are linked, but it is not a definite sentence, about 50% of people who get optic neuritis will end up with MS. I could undergo expensive testing to find out if I already have MS, even though I have no other symptoms, but it may not show up now and still show up many years down the road. Basically, the healthier you are the slower the disease will progress, so now being healthy is more than just about losing weight.

I have decided to do Weight Watchers because they teach you to live a healthy lifestyle, not just a fad diet. I have always thought that Weight Watchers was for fat old ladies, not for me, but now it is time to swallow my pride and get support. Several of the ladies in my new ward go to WW. I should try to go to the same meeting and get to know them better. Wish me luck!

Sigh...

I am back up to 235, like I didn't do anything in the first place. I can't seem to stick with any sort of diet. I really don't know what to do. All I know is wanting to be thinner will not make it so.

The last time I really worked hard at losing weight was just before I got pregnant with Nathan. I joined the rec. center, worked out everyday and ate healthy, but gained 5 pounds. I didn't know that was possible.

My exercising in the morning has kind of stopped. We have woken up early several times to go to Lehi for the day and now the kids always wake up early. My "my time" is now gone.

So there is this new product out there called FORM by My O3 World. It is an MLM. It supposedly gives you control by filling you up with an inert substance that expands with water. I did some research and it is the same stuff they put in cool collars, diapers, and even ice packs. I contacted a company that sells it for plants and crafts (water-sorb.com) and they said it is completely inert and safe and mentioned My O3 World was using the same stuff they are selling. So I ordered some and I am going to make my own pills, instead of paying $45 for 40 pills, I spent $37 for over 350! and that includes the capsule filler machine. I am hoping it will help me kill the snacking habit by making me feel full. I do always feel hungry, it's awful.

I am also thinking that maybe something like Weight Watcher will help teach me to each better and also give me lots of support, but I don't feel I can start up here in West Valley when I am going to be moving to Utah County at the end of the month. And it takes money. We'll see.

Thank You

I just saw your comments. I guess I need to set up that automatic email. Maybe reading them would have helped me not have a fit this morning. =)

You are all right. Thank you. Byron, I do need to make this sustainable. The juice fast really did cut down my cravings, I usually really, really want sweets all day, but I haven't felt that craving since Sunday. Lisa, I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one that gains the weight back after a fast. The inches are more important. =) I appreciate the support and encouragement. Thanks again!

ARRRGGGG!!

If you're wondering, yes I'm mad! The past two days I have gained 3 lbs! Tell me, how does someone gain weight when all they eat is salad with lots of veggies and fat free dressing and a small amount of lean meat? I had a banana yesterday too and some cottage cheese, but come on! I am being so good and I can't lose it, but I am already losing it and it's only been a week!!!!

OK, so I took a breath and measured myself:

Waist: 41 (I was 44!)

Hips: 47 (I was 49 1/2!)

That makes me feel a little bit better. I know I need to keep my spirits up or I won't keep doing it.

I have been thinking about doing the hcg thing, still haven't totally committed to it yet, but I have been reading and watching all I can online. Because it's a pregnancy hormone I have to wait until after my next mensus, to make sure I'm not pregnant and to leave at least 10 days between taking hcg and having my period. I would really really love to be the size I was when I got married (only 5 1/2 years ago, I've never met anyone who has gain 55 pounds in 5 years, unless they were bed bound! I was definitely not!). There's got to be something wrong with me.

P.S. It bothers me when these beautiful women I know complain about their perfectly fine bodies! They may not be Tyra Banks when they take off their clothes, but they've had babies! I would die to look like any number of women in my ward. Please stop complaining unless you actually look bad, it make me feel bad (if you're not acceptable, how possibly could I be?). =) Sorry for my rantings and ravings, sometimes I just have to get it out. ;)