Sigh...

I am back up to 235, like I didn't do anything in the first place. I can't seem to stick with any sort of diet. I really don't know what to do. All I know is wanting to be thinner will not make it so.

The last time I really worked hard at losing weight was just before I got pregnant with Nathan. I joined the rec. center, worked out everyday and ate healthy, but gained 5 pounds. I didn't know that was possible.

My exercising in the morning has kind of stopped. We have woken up early several times to go to Lehi for the day and now the kids always wake up early. My "my time" is now gone.

So there is this new product out there called FORM by My O3 World. It is an MLM. It supposedly gives you control by filling you up with an inert substance that expands with water. I did some research and it is the same stuff they put in cool collars, diapers, and even ice packs. I contacted a company that sells it for plants and crafts (water-sorb.com) and they said it is completely inert and safe and mentioned My O3 World was using the same stuff they are selling. So I ordered some and I am going to make my own pills, instead of paying $45 for 40 pills, I spent $37 for over 350! and that includes the capsule filler machine. I am hoping it will help me kill the snacking habit by making me feel full. I do always feel hungry, it's awful.

I am also thinking that maybe something like Weight Watcher will help teach me to each better and also give me lots of support, but I don't feel I can start up here in West Valley when I am going to be moving to Utah County at the end of the month. And it takes money. We'll see.